My ADHD Symptoms

Some symptoms are not as extreme as they once were, but that’s thanks to the help of various procedures and revelations from reading books !

Impulsiveness

I like to work on things prematurely and impulsively
- School assignments before instructions and guidelines are handed out
- Without a scheduled plan, I struggle to switch off a task and neglect other commitments/responsibilities
Once I indulge in something, I become easily addicted
- Alcohol
- Gambling
- Gaming
- Social media
Prone to addictions in general

Object Permanence

Horrible at remembering to reach out to others and maintain social relationships
- Unless I talk to people on a daily basis, I tend to forget to reach out or catch up with people; usually, other people have to intitiate conversations/activities with me
Lose and forget a lot of things

Hyper/Scatter Focus

Struggle to do things I somewhat resent
- Being told to do something
Fail to move on from a certain task until I am personally satisfied with progress
- Fail to adhere to set timelines for work periods

Executive Dysfunction

Executive dysfunction is a very pervasive aspect of ADHD that effects the ability to regulate our will power and self discipline

Have trouble planning out large tasks at times
- Failing to prepare for moving to BC
- Heavy reliance on procedures
Extremely indecisive
- Minor and major decisions
  - Course selection at SFU

Emotional Regulation

People pleaser that struggles to say no
- Frequently helps with homework and tasks that I probably don’t need to help with
Am sensitive to rejection or perceived negativity/rejection
- Rejection/absence in relationships, someone’s dislike towards me
I can get irrationally angry about inconsequential things
- Expecting apologies for small actions that in reality probably don’t mean much
- Snowballing resentment towards someone for personally anonying behavior
I can become very anxious about perceived outcomes/reactions and even if they do not come true I may fall into depression from processing these intense spikes of emotional pain
- An amplified version of how our anticipation can be more scary than the actual event
  - Terrified of public speaking, of social events
Feeling hurt or angry when interrupted/minorly mistreated
- Can also be when others are mistreated
- Frustration turns into carelessness

Poor working memory

I often forget things in my short term memory, names, phone numbers, things said in passing, etc.
- Forget things I am told to do, the reason why I enter a room, etc

Inattention

Fidget with hands and feet
- Foot movement, playing with objects
Easily drift off into irrelevant thoughts
- During vipassana meditation
- While doing a certain task, thinking about something prior in the day
Easily distracted by minor stimuli
- Chatter in the background, temperature, dirtiness of glasses, visual changes outside of my focus of vision

Sensory Processing Issues

I may look away completely and look like i’m rudely ignoring you when in fact i’m 100% focused on your audio input

Perservation

Being unable to move and let go of a task when the one I’m working on has been roadblocked and there’s nothing more I can possible do to unblock it
- Various internal desires that do not easily go away
  - Wanting a certain game/food/toy in my childhood, getting my way
Unable to leave someone alone if I hurt them and continually making it worse and badgering them further exacerbating
- Trying to sort out issues in my previous relationships, not giving room for breaks or time off

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Created:: 2021-07-10 14:07